Sunday, February 9, 2014

Posting for the end of sems!!

Now it CNY time...though few more days for it to end.

Project was like a never ending tasked to do.  Everyday, was like project, project and project.
This was like a never ending cycle. Wake up, eat, project, project project and bath, eat, sleep. This is wat i can do for this sem. Although some project i didnt really do much.

But from the pressure from the peers, leader...it can be really stressed sometimes, especially when we are with the smart ones. It just sooo stressed!!!

Nevertheless, it goona be the study week soon. So yeah!! Just endure few more days!!! WOOOO LET'S GO!!!!

Thursday, January 2, 2014

我发现,信任很容易被摧毁。
原来,人类是一个很恐怖,很恐怖的东西。
虽然要把人说成‘一位’, 但是在这世上,在人类出现之前,到底有人类在这世上吗?

当信任被摧毁,还能像以前一样吗?

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Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Today!! Is the last day of year 2013!!

Wooohooo!!

Let us enjoy our day and awaits the new 2014 to come!!

While my new year days will be very very sian...

Sooooo....3 more hours for year 2013 to go and new 2014 to arrive~~

Wednesday, December 25, 2013

Merry Chirstmas!! ^^

Merry Chirstmas everyone!! Although, it is going to end soon.

I hope everyone did enjoy their day. Although, i didn't go out, i me too, i enjoy my day, slacking at home doing nothing.

This will be a short post thought!!

So let us enjoy our day and count down to our end of Christmas. Wooohoo!

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Once a 'home'

Living in a place where i once called 'home' was a very irritating and frustrating things to do.
If i had a choice, i won't be staying in that house where i just treated it as a hotel, where it just provided me a bed, a place for me to shower.

I remember i once had a happy family when i was young. Where i was so innocent, so native and treated everyone who treated me well, as a friend/ good person. But one thing had happen and i slowly lose trust to my father and started to hate my father. I hated the thing he did to my mum, i know everything, he just assume i don;t know about it. I started to disrespect him and even don't even acknowledge him as my father until now, my thoughts are still the same. I will never forgive him what he did to my mum. NEVER!!

I know no matter what he did to my mum, is already consider a past. I really tried hard to acknowledge him as my father but i can't. I know i am a terrible person, and people who even know may say i am an unfilial but i really hate him and i don't think i will even forgive him even though, it is already the past.

I remember when my mum was still alived, whenever i went out, i always returned home early. First, is to eat my favourite mum's home cooked food. Second, is to prevent anything happen to my mum. I was so angry after i know what happen to my mum before, in the past, when she is still alive. I really hated him. I thought he have been good ever since my mum was sick, but it was not the truth until when my mum was so sick, till she had to hospitalise till she passed away, at that period of time, he had turned good. But i think this is not enough!! Therefore, partially i feeel that he is partly responsible for my mum death, even me, myself, knowing my mum condition had worsen and yet i still treated her quite bad when she still alive. Since i know, no matter what i will go to hell whe i am dead. I don't care, i just don't want to treat my father as my father again. I really wish i can just leave this pathatic hotel which so called my 'HOME', and live my own life. Maybe i will have my retribution in future, but i know i deserved it.

I really hated to stay in that house, where my father say everything belong to him etc and threaten me to sell the house etc. I now, don't even give a dam!!
If he want to sell his home, so be it. He don't want to give me the house or his money when he is dead, so be it!! I don't even give a dam!!

I will not live in the house, where he don't even trust me!! Where i have no privacy!! Where i don't feel that i am home!!!! I don't even care!! If i leave the house, whether he is dead or alive, it is none of my business!!

No matter what, i won't regard hm as my father!! I will never ever forgive him, even what he did to my mum is not my issue.

A house where you feel like a hotel, where you have no freedom, no privacy, always being threaten to have the house being sell away and have no trust, is just hell. But probably better than hell in a way.
Just wish i can leave this idiotic house as fast as possible.