Today!! Is the last day of year 2013!!

Wooohooo!!

Let us enjoy our day and awaits the new 2014 to come!!

While my new year days will be very very sian...

Sooooo....3 more hours for year 2013 to go and new 2014 to arrive~~

Merry Chirstmas!! ^^

Merry Chirstmas everyone!! Although, it is going to end soon.

I hope everyone did enjoy their day. Although, i didn't go out, i me too, i enjoy my day, slacking at home doing nothing.

This will be a short post thought!!

So let us enjoy our day and count down to our end of Christmas. Wooohoo!

Once a 'home'

Living in a place where i once called 'home' was a very irritating and frustrating things to do.
If i had a choice, i won't be staying in that house where i just treated it as a hotel, where it just provided me a bed, a place for me to shower.

I remember i once had a happy family when i was young. Where i was so innocent, so native and treated everyone who treated me well, as a friend/ good person. But one thing had happen and i slowly lose trust to my father and started to hate my father. I hated the thing he did to my mum, i know everything, he just assume i don;t know about it. I started to disrespect him and even don't even acknowledge him as my father until now, my thoughts are still the same. I will never forgive him what he did to my mum. NEVER!!

I know no matter what he did to my mum, is already consider a past. I really tried hard to acknowledge him as my father but i can't. I know i am a terrible person, and people who even know may say i am an unfilial but i really hate him and i don't think i will even forgive him even though, it is already the past.

I remember when my mum was still alived, whenever i went out, i always returned home early. First, is to eat my favourite mum's home cooked food. Second, is to prevent anything happen to my mum. I was so angry after i know what happen to my mum before, in the past, when she is still alive. I really hated him. I thought he have been good ever since my mum was sick, but it was not the truth until when my mum was so sick, till she had to hospitalise till she passed away, at that period of time, he had turned good. But i think this is not enough!! Therefore, partially i feeel that he is partly responsible for my mum death, even me, myself, knowing my mum condition had worsen and yet i still treated her quite bad when she still alive. Since i know, no matter what i will go to hell whe i am dead. I don't care, i just don't want to treat my father as my father again. I really wish i can just leave this pathatic hotel which so called my 'HOME', and live my own life. Maybe i will have my retribution in future, but i know i deserved it.

I really hated to stay in that house, where my father say everything belong to him etc and threaten me to sell the house etc. I now, don't even give a dam!!
If he want to sell his home, so be it. He don't want to give me the house or his money when he is dead, so be it!! I don't even give a dam!!

I will not live in the house, where he don't even trust me!! Where i have no privacy!! Where i don't feel that i am home!!!! I don't even care!! If i leave the house, whether he is dead or alive, it is none of my business!!

No matter what, i won't regard hm as my father!! I will never ever forgive him, even what he did to my mum is not my issue.

A house where you feel like a hotel, where you have no freedom, no privacy, always being threaten to have the house being sell away and have no trust, is just hell. But probably better than hell in a way.
Just wish i can leave this idiotic house as fast as possible.

Special date: 11/12/13 where i still having test.

Today, is a special day. As i maybe once in a lifetime which has the date of 11/12/13, which made today a special day of this year december.

This special day i had, still had a head breaking test to continue, and i think most probably i can do it and get at least a passing mark.

However, looking forward to the day where all the hating exam end, where i can finally have a small little break after half of the semester have gone. After the exam, i swear i am gonna watch the movie frozen.!! i am sooo love the movie even i have oly watched the trailer and heard the song of 'let it go'. Though the song is kinda sad and lonely, but i just love it!!!

Okay!! Back on relaxing for a while before my nightmare is going to start. I can do it for this small exam!! I believe i can survive this!! :)

A forgettful memory of this small blog

It have been months since i had logged in. This current sentence have been what i usually said when i had logged in to this blog after a few months or so. I guess i really is very LAZY to remember this blog, cause i really had no idea of this blog existence when i was busy till just now when i was free doing nothing.

I had been wanted to use this blog to typed off my unhappiness towards my life but it have been quite less actually, so i guess this might be one of the good news out of so many bad news.
I know i kept on sort of comparing life with some other of my friend just to have a topic to talk about, but i also know that i have been talking the same thing over and over again like an old old lady. haha, guess soo maybe someone will called me "gandma" hahaha

Life in school have been quite busy especially with all those 'overloading' project, but some of those project, i have just been a 'free rider'. But i am ok with it, even if i am being 'marked down'.
I also have been watching some of those 'weird people' in school doing some 'weird stuff' like attention seeking etc. To me, i have been quite tired to see those things especially those attention seeking people, it guess make me feel so like ignoring them. But hardly...

Soon, after a few days, it will be my exam...and i still haven't really bother much. Just so lazy to think about it, but i have read through some notes though.

Ok! so soon will e my short holiday for Christmas...i wonder till tat time will i still able to remember this blog or had to wait a few more month to it? haha...so long!!