The person who is different in the past

Probably the last post i will post about that person.
There probably be a time that i do have feeling for you, but now only guilt left.
Thus, from this post onward, i will forgive, accept and forget whatever things which happen to us.
I really do hope that we can be friend like we use to be, but i know it is quite impossible and i am sure, things wont get back to the same as it use to be.

I remembered in the past, there is a time you wouldn't mind to come all the way from your home to mine.
Although, my house wasn't too far away from yours, but it still required a 15mins bus trip.
I remember that you came to my house and go school with me. Not everyone can do that, but at least you did it.
At my saddest moment, you are there to lend me your shoulder. I remember there is a time, i cried and cried, but you comfort me without saying anything. But you are there for me.
To me, you are really the only person i can depend on.
You use your money to treat me to all the nice food. You spend most of your allowance to treat me eat nice food.
Although you never brought me flowers on valentine or birthday, but at least on some occasion, you tried to do some handmade origami.

We fought, we quarrel, but you are the first one who say sorry to me.
But i realize as times go, we are still at the same level.
I think we got use to each other as time past.
When we are in the relationship, i never really thought of leaving you even though i knew you were not the person i will marry to.
To be true, i never thought of marrying you. Never thought we will have the happy ending like fairy tale.

No one is perfect, so are we.
I remembered there is a few times you gave in to me...
I remembered there is a time where i feel hungry, i told you and hoping you can buy food for me, but your answer is no. We quarrel because of this but you end up gave in.
There is a time where i wish you could send me home, and you said no. After quarreling with you again, you gave in.
A few times, we quarreled because you never answer you phone when i called.
There is so much more things about us but i know can hardly remembered.

I not sure from where i am not the same person i used to be, but i swear, before i broke up with you, i am not in the relationship with other people till we broke up. I know when thinking whether we should break up that period, i do have a 2nd heart, but before i broke with you, my 2nd heart is already gone.

Actually i now regret that when we broke up, we never broke up in a peaceful manner.
I don't have any hate towards you, only guilt.
I know you somehow hate me, which is OK.

Now i feel that you are in a good relationship with one of my friend, which is good. I think she let you becoming a person who is caring.
Your action to me is now different compared to her.
I can see you are willing to do things which you are not willing to do to me.
Now i wished you can treat her even better den you treat me.
She is really a good person, even though she is not close to me now.
May both of you have a happy ending like what i am having now.
It ok that we may not be friends again but at least i know you are happy. :)

Just need a place to put my thoughts in

IT'S BEEN SO LONG AGAIN.

REALLY NEED A PLACE TO PLACE MY THOUGHTS.

MY HEART FEEL SO ACHY. FEELING SO DISTANCE FROM MY FRIEND. REALLY HAVE A FEELING THAT SHE IS AVOIDING ME. STILL WONDERING WHY THOUGH.

SHE CLAIM THAT SHE IS BUSY...HOWEVER, EVEN IF SHE IS BUSY, SHE HAVE TIME TO GO OUT. HAHAHA
IT JUST SO WEIRD........

WEIRD HUMAN......

Random thoughts

Having project like any other poly. Do not have much holiday either.
Kinda reject for choosing some member in group but well, what is done is done. I cant really do much either.

Have so much to say but too lazy to type out.
Much to surprise i doesnt want to complain anymore, for now i guess.

Still wondering why we a

Re in this world though, maybe i will never understand why too.

Shall continue working hard to live in this world. Maybe will learn to judge less, but still, i think it is quite impossible.

Will try not to give attitude either but still i wont go mercy on people who i dun like.

That all for my random thoughts.

Finally feel much comfortable, as i have finally let out all my anger. Feel much better and more relaxing. Really feeling appreciated. I have noticed that i said i feel happy, appreciate lots of time. But i really do. Compared to people who did not. Hahaha

Have a feeling to travel somewhere far, but havent made up my mind yet. Wanted to go japan the most though, but no money.
OK, Shall save money to go JAPAN!! ~~~

Posting for the end of sems!!

Now it CNY time...though few more days for it to end.

Project was like a never ending tasked to do.  Everyday, was like project, project and project.
This was like a never ending cycle. Wake up, eat, project, project project and bath, eat, sleep. This is wat i can do for this sem. Although some project i didnt really do much.

But from the pressure from the peers, leader...it can be really stressed sometimes, especially when we are with the smart ones. It just sooo stressed!!!

Nevertheless, it goona be the study week soon. So yeah!! Just endure few more days!!! WOOOO LET'S GO!!!!