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2012-02-10T21:22:00.001+08:00

Feeling kinda tired lately..working..etc...
hahax...
having a busy life is good.
Sooner or lately...i will be choosing my poly course.
Having some course in mind...
hoping that god can show me a way of where to go.
hahax...
i tink that the end of it.
May god bless.

2012-01-24T23:58:00.002+08:00

I feel so irritated.
Why in the world does people stand on his side?
Whatever shit he says, they always believe...they always listen to him.
THAN WHO WILL LISTEN TO ME???!!!

I hate them...if tmr i go to his relative house...and if the stuff i heard irritate me..
i guess i will give them a showdown.
I will speak what i feel and dun care what people think of me.
As long i feel it is right, i will earn my point.
I dun mind if the relationship between me and them are broken.
Anyway, they always on his side.

Therefore, i will speak for myself and will not hold back!!!!
This will tell them who am i.!!!!

2012-01-24T14:07:00.002+08:00

Today...still at my aunty house...
hahax...stay for too long le...
but nevermind...today gg home le...
i will miss the time when i was with them all..

hoping we will be more close with each other when i meet again..
thx.. and happy CNY...
hahax..

1 day before CNY's eve.

2012-01-21T18:32:00.002+08:00

Today..staying at my aunty's house.
but no matter what..during CNY for this year..it feel rather lonely for me.
No matter who company me..i still lonely.

Today...i had a weird dream..
dreaming one of the intership student is falling for me.
In my dream, i know it is impossible though..
but i feel happy. Dun noe why..

But when i wake up..and now i think of it...
i laugh...
for now...i think...it still impossible..
as he had a perfect with his relationship..
i guess even himself wants to stay the way it was for now.
He doesnt wan to change anything...
therefore, i will give him my blessing here... ^^

And for now...
tmr happy CNY eve...^^

Chinese New year's eve, eve, eve.

2012-01-19T21:08:00.005+08:00

Today, a boring and tiring day for me.
Feeling so tired and sick.
My ear somehow have a lump and suspect an ear infection.
Just..soooo sian...hate it..but i just hope it is a pimple instead.

Tomrrow will be a happy day cause is 2 days before new yea's eve.
But some of my senior say most likely no half day.
but i am looking forward for the half day, cause which means i can sleep and rest.
hOPEFULLY, tmr do have a half day.^^

and hope my ear is just a small problem.

Why am i always alone?

2012-01-14T01:08:00.001+08:00

It been 2 months since i wrote this blog.
Since now is 2012..i guess it mean new beginning right?

There is a lot of stuffs that i wanted..
but all the stuffs i get, might not be what i really want.
I may just get it cause i may need it, or having fun.

But now i found my new goal, which is baking, that is one of the the stuff that i want to learn..
i am happy for what i have now..but i never feel satisfied.
I guess this are what most teens are thinking now..get the things they want.

However, even i never need anythings practically for now, but i still never feel contented.
I have friends, family and classmates. But still for what i have now, i still feel that i am always alone.
Everytime, when i need someone, or when i need help.
I am alone most of the time.
Ever since my mum is gone, i am always alone.
When ever i wake up, i am always alone.
I hate this loneliness feeling, having this feeling, let me feel so helpless.

I guess some people may understand my feeling, some may not.
But all i want is, to have someone to company me, hug me, pat my head.
That is all i wanted...but i guess..it is impossible.

No matter what, i will try to get use to it, the current lives i have now.

2011-10-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

Today, a boring day as i almost sleep in class every lesson.
Maybe, i am too tired, or maybe i just too lazy.
In this world, there is a lot of maybe.
Without the word 'maybe', there wont be possibility and there wont be the truth.

Without maybe, you wont stop thinking of this and that.
Without maybe, you wont know which steps you are in next.
Without maybe, you wont know your true feeling.

There are lots of possibility with maybe.
You can maybe this and maybe that, but without possibility, you wont move ahead.
ANd together with possibility, there goes with truth.

Therefore, everything is just an excuse, you can maybe this maybe that, but you will never run away fro the truth.
That is what i think though.

2011-09-29T21:51:00.002+08:00

Soon, my holiday is ending soon.
Even though i leave this blog a little dust, but i never forget about it.
It just a little forgetful and troublesover 10%ome to online everyday and type what you think and feel.
And also, you cant possibly try to think what to type and kill your braincells right?

After knowing what i get for my result, i was a little surprise.
Never thought it can be so good. But on other side, since my result can be this good, so are the others.

And the think of it,it coming to my attachment soon.
I hope i can have a job which is something good, i like and i can cope.
Even though this thoughts is already too much and out of expectation, if over 100% of it, there are 1% chances, i will hope for that 1% chances.
But if really cant expect my wish, then i hope i can get a good job and i like.

hahax...so overall, hope my attachment will be wonderful. ^^

With biggest memories, genting with friends ^^

2011-09-17T20:19:00.003+08:00

Yo...just finish my school exam and just come back from my genting holiday.
The whole process was fun and exciting.
1st time doing this and 1st time doing that.
A whole new experience is awaiting for me. ^^

After my genting trip, i was a little busy for my genting trip.
When reach genting for his few days, i learn archery and bowling.
Even though, not as good as the people who reach me, but at least i had the fun of it.
The people going with me are, tong kai(TK) and kiah hwee(KH).

We enjoy doing everytink tgt, it like a new experience ^^
We also had our fun and we throw our problems away when we at genting.

How i wish i can stay at genting forever.
But no matter wat, i wish we 3 can go genting tgt..again. ^^

2011-09-01T23:32:00.001+08:00

Today, 1st day of september.
For now, i still think i quite useless cause i am not good in anytink.
I still thinking what i good at.

I now want to try baking. Cause i think baking is fun.
But i scared i not good at it...
so how???

Haiz...i really want to know what i am good at.
How am i going to do?

Happy Birthday to me. ^^

2011-08-14T00:36:00.004+08:00

Today, my birthday ^^ so happy birthday to myself. XD
Going out with Tong Kai(TK) and Kiah Hwee(KH) at bugis.
Feeling fun and happy...watch zookeeper after having our small lunch.
The movie was dam funny. The animals is sooo cute ^^ hahax.

After movie, we go for seoul garden. As there are nice but eventually getting sick the more u eat. Cause too sweet. And today, maybe i am the birthday gal. TK and KH, the 2 guys cook the meat for me to eat. Feel so happy. Hahax...1st time 2 guys cook for me to eat. Hehex. We stay there and chat about our past life from 7.30pm to around 9.45pm. Till the shop gonna close. hahax.

After that, we go esplanade for the night view. Reach around 10.15pm, stay there chat about life, ufo, etc. From that moment, i thought we will noe even more about each other, but another side, we still far from knowing each other. Stay around 11.20pm and off we go.

All a while, today is my 1st time celebrating birthday with friends ^^
Quite enjoy, and sometink new for me. I never thought ppl will remember my birthday and will celebrate with me. I always thought, i am just a nobody to everyone. Someone who never ever get notice by ppl. Even ppl always promise say will celebrate with u, as times goes, they will forget. That are human, i guess.

Today when tk, kh, and me, we 3 are tgt. We consider each other as friends. I hope our friendship will never end and will get closer as times goes. Just hope we all friends will always be tgt. ^^

Not my day.

2011-08-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

Hello.
Today is a very, very warm day. Unlike, yesterday, for me, it is a cold torturing day.

Yesterday, wake up around 8plus in the morning. After do some offering, i discover my whole body aching and i feel dam cold.
Not a while later, i jnew i was sick. Sick on the National Day. -.-
Very sian, never expect yesterday wasnt my day at all.
While everyone feeling warm, i feel cold.
I even wear jacket out and i guess people must thought that i am a freak.

But end up, half recover during the night.
And today, fully recover but nose very itchy and my whole body too.

HAiz...i just so sian.
No matter what, hope everytink can faster end soon.

National Day

2011-08-08T21:49:00.003+08:00

Today, national day's eve.
Half day for me at school and i never expect sometink new for me.
Brought popcorn as dinner and brought a medium pack instead.Therefore, more popcorn for me as dinner for tmr.
My stomach still dun went s well...all the suddenly, i not feeling well again.
Haiz, guess i too hungry for too full.
My stomach is just full with air and empty space.

Anyway, since tmr is National day and i never plan to stay at home even after doing some offering for HER.
I really wanted to see fireworks at national day, but since tmr someone cant go out, i cat do anytink about it den.
Just stone and watch fireworks from the tv instead. Even though, it is quite sad and pathetic to say it.
Nevertheless, i never been a good day or week for me. haiz..just hope luck and fate will change better. OR not.

2011-08-06T13:47:00.002+08:00

Today is a sleeping day for me.
Sleeping all day long...^^
but my whole body are aching...
haiz...this might be a consequences of sleeping so long.

hmmm...yesterday is also a tiring day.
sleep the whole day but still feeling tired.
haiz...
i can say myself is just lazy...
hahax

hmmm..so that all..after so long i was be able to post..
hahahx,,just feeling happy. hehex

2011-07-28T21:51:00.002+08:00

Today, is a tiring day.
No matter what, i always feel like sleeping.
Haiz, i feel like i am a pig.
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I guess lately, i made a friend of mine feel irritated.
As always ask him out for lunch etc, i guess perhaps he really need some peace.
Peace from me.
I feel that he had something in his mind. He dont really speak what troubles him.
He usually keep things to himself. As a friend, i really want to help him, but at the same time, i know i cant do anything.
But all i want is he could talk what in his mind, maybe he will feel much better then keeping everything to himself.

I always hope i could cheer him out, but i guess i always failed.
Even he always laugh and joke with us, sometimes i feel that something is bothering him and that thing is the main thing which made him feel troubled and unhappy.

I guess i may think too much too, but i just hope that friend of mine wont have anything which bother him. Even it do, i hope whatever problem he have, will have a solution soon.

Tiring day

2011-07-16T15:30:00.002+08:00

Haiz, still a tiring day for me.
Temporally cant get use to it to the new schedule, therefore, no matter what, i keep feel like sleeping.
Going out today to find my friend. Or mayb disturb him.
Even though dun feel like going out, but i dun wan to stay at home, therefore go find him to disturb him.
Hmmm, so long den, going out soon.

2011-07-13T22:20:00.002+08:00

Today, the 3rd day of school reopening.
Still not quite use to the wake up timing, therefore, it just made me feel so tired.
Playing maple again while studying.
But never play much though, just focus on doing ring for now.

Haiz, but no matter what, i have to start studying, if not my GPA will be in danger.
haiz..so worry.
But i just cant do anything, therefore, i hope i will think out of somethink fast, soon.

Outing with my beloved cousins ^^

2011-07-06T23:09:00.002+08:00

Today, is totally a day which is boring, tiring and fun day.
Outing with Tze Hwee(TH) firstly and Kiah Hwee(KH).
We meet up around 1pm and straight for lunch as we are all hungry, after lunch we go shopping for my clothing.
Walk around BHG till sian and end up decided to go Bugis Street.
While walking, 2 hairdresser stop us and ask us to help out as a model for a group of Korean hairstylist trainee, as we have nothing to do, we accept it.

We reach a shop call TONY AND GUY, i think is this shop's name. Wait around 5mins and 1 of the hairstylist call us and ask about a change of hairstyle. And we all agree, and we wait for another 15mins for the korean student to arrive.

After their arrival, we waited for another 5mins, for their instruction and we are gone for new hairstyle.
TH was called first for a change, and them me after waiting for around 5 to 10mins.

One for the instructor, who in charge changing my hairstyle, teach the students how to change etc, and the whole procedure is about 1hr 30mins. If i not wrong.
And my new hairstyle is done. Even though it doesnt change much for the length, but they change my hair volume.

So far like my hairstyle as i feel light after my haircut, as my hair is very thick on top and it always pulling my hair down.

After all this, we meet up Tze Ying(TY), and straight for Starbucks and continue our shopping at bugis street.
After walking around 1hr or so, i finally brought my shirt and that for the journey at bugis street.
While TY and TH going home, i amd KH walk to BHG to buy my clothing, but i didn't brought cause o money.
I decided to buy it on this coming tuesday. If i am fated to buy this shirt, i will surely brought it on tuesday, if i still saw the shirt.
And that all for the day, so tired and ya, what a day. ^^
Hoping to go out with TY and TH again, so miss them a lot. ^^

死神少女 show...nice ^^

2011-07-05T20:31:00.002+08:00

Gloomy Salad Day aka 死神少女 is the first drama I have watch after watching around half a year anime.
Never thought will watch drama instead of anime.
At least thought it was a lame show, but after watching it, found it somehow similar to Hell Girl aka Jigoku Shoujo. Even though, storyline different but i found the whole drama amazing.

It's story is base on family, friends, GG, BB, and BG relationship. But mostly on BG relationship though.
It also reveal the world's reality, and cruelty.
But it also included a little paranormal, where the Death girl appear. It feels paranormal only though.

Therefore if ask for my rating from 10, i will give 9.5. As some story are base on true story.
Just that some part they change where the death girl comes out which death girl don't really exist.
Those who watch Jogoku Shoujo might eventually like this show, i suppose.

SO..that all for my death girl drama ^^ I really believe all this stuff, where people refers as nonsense, exist.

我最喜欢渡不过的灵魂了，你想变成石头，帮我支撑奈何桥吗？

Cycling fun =D

2011-07-04T22:30:00.003+08:00

Today out for cycling with my 2 classmates, Tong kai and Kiah Hwee.
As TK is teaching KH how to cycle, as i know a little so stay back and relax, while wtching the torture begains...

We rent the bike about 2 hours so the learning lesson continues about 1 hours.
After 1 hours plus, KH finally know how to cycle despite numerous of failures, after that he can finally step out and go for a cycle. This is where all the fun begins. ^^

Cycle around the whole paris, and was fun, even though, mostly tired.
hahax..
i dont mind doing this with them again.

we end all this around 4pm plus, and we rest awhile and etc, aournd 6pm for dinner and wondering aound paris white sand.
When we about to go saw my ex-classmate via friends.
Never say Hi in person but in sms instead.

End up, enjoy my day pretty much.
Hoping to do this again with my favourite cousin ^^

A bad day of mine? OR not?

2011-07-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

Today, a boring day.
All i can do is playing maple all day long.
Other then that, totally nothing to do.

Somehow, today is also not my day.
After my sneezing frenzy from yesterday, i have stomach ache for today.
Haiz, when will all my 'good luck' be gone?

No matter what looking forward for tomorrow outing with my classmate, Tong Kai.
Going cycling and have fun.
Too bad my cousin still need to study, if not, i will ask them to join us the fun. ^^
Other then this, if my outing on wednesday is confirm, i will have two outing in this week.
And yes!!, i have 2 outings and will be busy ^^
And i suppose after this 2 outings, my nightmare will continue, my nightmare of study.

So...TATA~ ^^

New Start, New Begining

2011-07-03T00:29:00.003+08:00

Just deleted all my previous post for the past 2 years.
Even though, they are all my past 2 years memories, no matter good or bad, but i decided to start a new.

Today, decided to change my bedsheet, and end up getting a very annoying sneeze, which made me suffer till now.
Can't believe that my room is actually full of dust, as i am allergy to dust. HATE IT ><
So hope my sneezing problem will gone soon.
As i fully change my blog, therefore, hoping from today on, i will continue to keep my blog alive.