Miss everything

I am an only child. Don't have any siblings, friends are also limited. But i do have a great family members who loves me. Maybe, my life are way more fortunate compared to other people, as i gain more than i lost.
Maybe gods do love me. And what i did in the past made me regret.
I don't expect myself to go in the heaven when i die, i just hope that i can enjoy and have fun for now.
As i did too much "bad stuff", i deserve to go to hell, if the god say i should go hell.

I am not a Christian. I know god do exist, and maybe god really do love me. But i had lose faith in it. But still i still know that it not their fault. Losing someone is the greatest sadness i had ever gain, but still, sometime, i hope to see the person again no matter what. No matter how happy i am now, i still miss the particular someone. I wished to be with her. I wanted to be with her. But, i just cant.
I hope she can forgive me, as i noe what i said is already too late. But still i wish i could eat with her, take photo with her and talk with her. I miss everything that she does for me. Missed everything...

Just hope that time can reverse to where it is...but...i noe this is not going to happen.

Enjoy the little things ^^

Today, had my lovely soft toys won at the claw machine. And some few other items.
I guess one of the machines is "hacked", as it have credits on it's own. So, almost everything i had is free!! Except the big soft toy. ^^

For me, this is a little things which i enjoy. Although, it is kinda bad, but it kinda cool in someway. I guess people who read this will be cursing and swearing like "what the hell, get it for free??? U so bad...." Etc etc etc, but i am still enjoying it. So far, got a portable charger for smartphones, one portable charger for iphone 4, 3 mini soft toys and perhaps one small key chain.
For what i had, i admit that i have the greed in mind. "Since it is free, i might as well took it." This type of mindset took me in. But if the major prize is psp, s3, xbox, ipad mini, all the expensive stuff, i guess most of the people might took it too. Including me of course...haha.
But no matter what i really had fun.

This is the little things which i had enjoyed.

^^

why cant some ppl understand?

It been sometimes for my this holiday. Had been at home doing nothing basically. However, lately,  had go out with friends, playing badminton(only starting for a day). It seems other than that, i have been doing nothing!!

Wanted to go overseas, like genting, eveb though i have been there till about "100% cooked" but i still enjoy the cool weather. And also the food!!

Haha...basically, i have a food lover, but had to cut down on it...so it is kinda sad.

March this year, is a money spending month. So many of mybfriends birthday, and had to kill all my saving to buy present. Money had been from full to half full till it just left abit. Haiz, and this holiday i am just too lazy to work. Therefore, had to cut down on food.

Haiz, but i am happy though. At least i am not really depending on anyone except my parent. So ya, so this holiday, haf to save money instead of spending.

When i was bored, i saw my friend tweet, it kinda irritating. To her, it seems that she is the world's most pathetic person, and keep say like world is unfair to her, hope to have this and that.
Not that i dont like, but too tired to see all this nonsense.

I dont care what things happen to her which made her think that the world is unfair, but no matter how the world is unfair, life still go on!! If she dont like her life, so be it!! She doesnt need to comment and made people feel that she is very poor thing.

Just hoping that one day, she could understand that, no matter how unfair the world treated her, she cant have the mindset that the world is against her. Cause she is the one who is against herself most of the time.

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Differences between everyone

This year will be my 21st in my life. Although, my day is still far away from me but it just some mix feeling after seeing my friend celebrating her 21st.

When i look at her 21st birthday, i knew we 2 are different. She had her loving parent and nice family members celebrating for her birthday at a resturant and all her wonderful friends that she remembered. Of course, i am not one of them. But no matter what, i am happy for her.

After seeing this, i was wondering who will be celebrating my birthday and what are we going to do to celebrate. For me, i dun really looking forward to it.

To me, turning 21 is just telling you, you are one year older, and you can legally gamble in casino. That all. But it still feels cool if many many people celebrating my birthday.

Although this may not come true, but i noe sone of my friend will celebrate my birthday. Maybe, not as good as what my friend family do for her, but i am sure, it may be a memorable one.

Looking forward to my birthday and shall set a gift that i want for myself.

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